Don't be such a turkey.

Hey folks, so before you start reading this one, caution and warning, if you are easily sick by extensive repulsive details, avoid reading, and also if you're a vegetarian you may not want to read, however you may want to read if you're vegetarian because you could probably relate to this experience.

Alright, so at the homeless shelter I do laundry in the mornings and then work in the kitchen in the afternoons. I've already had pleasureable jobs to do such as peeling potatoes for 6 hours, cutting 10 pounds of onions etc etc.. but the other day I was presented with multiple turkeys and was required to debone them/take the meat off of them etc etc. I've been a vegetarian my whole life with the exception of the past 2 years, and since coming to Quebec I've been a vegetarian again, and even when I did eat meat it was rare, and even rarer that I'd actually enjoy it. Anyhow, I told them I was vegetarian and that was probably not the best job for me, plus I'd never done it before and was unsure of the process or how to do good job but they just dismissed that. So I did it for two hours, was slightly repulsed etc but forced myself to do it because it was part of my job and a new experience and for the homeless and I used whatever justification I could come up with.
However, I returned the next afternoon and presented with the same job only worse. Not only were these turkeys bigger, but they sat in a huge container halfway filled with solidified jello fat, random feathers were still connected to it's body, in one handful of meat I'd pick up there would be a section of it's like spinal bones, in another, a random organ (I think it was a liver)one of it's necks laid curled and disconnected lodged in the layer of fat and with everywhere I touched a bone would snap and break, and this paired with the stench made me absolutely sick, and I felt so bad for doing this again to an animal so I feel like throwing up, and tears are running down my face and I understand the two chefs and they're talking about 'content' and how I don't seem happy with my job.. so before I know it, my boss is in the kitchen and pulled me aside and I told him how that is not a suitable job, for even a non-vegetarian and although I realize when you're vegetarian you still have to deal with meat at your job there is a huge difference between the state of that turkey, and like cutting a turkey breast on a cutting board you know? Anyhow he sent me home two hours early because I was upset, and so I went home to sleep where I was woken up by a phone call from my PC so I had to explain to her because my boss called her and told her I was upset that day. By the time supper came around 4 hours later, I still had no appetite but forced myself to eat. And right now too, I'm reading Sarah's book about vegetarianism called eating animals and it was kinda like a case study, right there in front of me, dead proof of why I hate meat again.
Anyhow so that was my traumatic event of the week.
On Friday afternoon we volunteered at L'arche the center for disabilitied adults. Each year they make clay bowls and paint and decorate them and then the public come in and pay them to have a bowl of soup, and it pays for the soup plus they get to keep the handmade bowl it came in, and its a really popular fundraising event for them, so we came after and moved tables and chairs and I swept and mopped the floor.
For personal competencies I chose number 8 or this rotation so that I can finally make up my mind about what to do after Katimavik, my plan was to move to Montreal but it's changed recently and my mind keeps flipping back and forth so I'm going to do some research and come up with a plan I really want to stick to.
I'm also super excited for the 7-9 of Jan because it's our 48 hours off and I'm going to visit Jessica from Encounters in Montreal!! It's going to be amazing.
Even this shows me how much Katimavik has changed me, because I would never imagine 4 months ago having the courgage to bus from a city I just moved to, to another city I've never been for a few days alone, but now, I think nothing of it.
We arranged to have a secret Santa exchange and I'm excited to see who has me and for my person to open what I got them. I'm sure it's going to be great because we all know eachother pretty well so I suspect the presents will be great and personalized.
Anyhow, that's all for now. I'm sure many pictures and updates will happen in the next two weeks as they are completely booked with wintery bonding activities.
Sorry for the lack of updates. I've been knee deep in stress and drama, so dun worry about it.
I miss all of you guys, and happy early christmas, I wish you the best in the season.